I can't believe I am sitting in class having another episode. I am so tired of this heartburn. Other than that, I am dealingwith my situation. I am a senior in high school. I serve on several church, school and community committees. And even though I'll be class valedictorian, I'm expecting my first child. According to my doctors, I'll be in labor by the time Summer rolls around, which leaves me with two more months of this uncomfortable body.
Many have asked, "How did you get pregnant with all that you have going for yourself?"
My answer is always, "No one is perfect." If it isn't that question, then I receive stares from friends, family, and strangers. Many of which seem to have the emotion of disappointment and disgust. Why the frowns and raised brows? Why not smiles of comfort and encouragement that things will just be different than originally planned?
Support systems are so important. So many times people write off individuals that find themselves in my situation. It's the supportive people that help me continue to find my way to greatness. It took my mother a while to adapt to the future change. I remember when I told her I missed my period, she had me take about ten pregnancy tests. And even after the results came back positive, she proceeded in scheduling appointments with three different doctors. However, after the initial shock of the reality, we had a long discussion about the responsibility that was ahead of me. She explained how the responsibility to continue living a productive life was more important than ever before. She's been there for me ever since. Even my dad has accepted who will be changing our lives in a few months and continues to be supportive. Just yesterday, he gave me a book on "How to Be a Productive Parent".
I've been accepted to college with a full scholarship, my parents have agreed to take care of my child while I'm gone. Some would argue that I'm not taking full responsibility of having my child because I'm going off to college, but I know that the decision we are making is the right one. It won't be easy, leaving my child behind, but in the end, when I come back with a degree and hopefully a great job opportunity, I will be better off. If I stay at home and go to a community college, I'll miss out on so much more. The networks and exposure I'll receive will hopefully prepare me to be more equipped to take on other challenges of the world.
Statistically, people expect me to stay at home, live off welfare or work a minimum wage job. Heck, others expect me to just plain give up. I refuse to be labeled. I refuse to be tagged with thoughts and actions of defeat. I will love my child and myself enough to know that I have to continue with what is still accessible for me. It is true that not everyone has the circumstances of two parents at home willing to help with an unborn child. But the fact does remain that even when we detour from the paths we are traveling, it is our decision as to how quickly it will take us to get back on that path.